What Does Okay Feel Like?
You asked me in the lunch line,
You called a last-ditch meeting,
You knew I could do better.
You all said:
Are you okay?
Is something wrong?
What's going on
With you?
You wanna talk?
I'm here for you.
Don't say you're sorry--
It's not about me.
You're only hurting you.
I put on a smile
You seem to believe.
I'm fine, I say,
But don't look too close.
Let me slip through your cracks,
Let me go on smiling.
Let me watch all alone
And see what I'm not.
As years march on,
The smile falters,
No longer reaching my eyes.
But you don't want to see,
So you don't really look.
And yet you ask once more:
Are you okay?
Is something wrong?
What's going on
With you?
You scare me this time.
It's something new.
You'd really listen
If I'd talk to you.
But what to say?
How do I start?
After all this time,
It tears me apart.
How can I make you see?
Then suddenly, without my bidding,
The hidden Me comes out,
And says, in a shaky voice,
What does okay feel like?
As your eyes widen in shock,
That little voice screams
NO! I'm NOT okay!
